Jesus Christ

Yup, in 12hours I will over Germany mid-way to Greece! I feel all excited and such but also sad...well 2 weeks is not THAT much time, I mean, I can't believe how 2yrs have gone by!

I haven't even set foot home and I still can't wait to come back!

Fuck's sake's that wasn't absinth! I want to get so fucked up I wouldn't remeber who I was but nooooooo they just had to have the worst every absinth.

FUCK! I want something to get me really messed up, at least I will have a reason to feel like, yeah.

Which 1990's Subculture Do You Belong To?

[Another Quiz by Kris
@ couplandesque.net]

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME
1) nothing anymore
2)
3)

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND
1) myself
2) "wester world"
3)

THREE THINGS I'D LIKE TO LEARN
1) computer architecture
2) to keep things inside me
3) to make bombs

THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
1) four piercings
2)
3)

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
1) keys
2) food
3) cans

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1) witness a nuclear blast
2) go to back to my roots in Constantinople
3) kill myself

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
1) idiotic
2) selfish
3)

THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
1) my self is talking to me loud, we shout at eachother during arguments
2) i have too many issues
3) i always leave things undone

THREE GOOD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
1) im suicidal
2)
3)

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1) greek
2)
3)

THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1)
2)
3)

THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1) this fucked up skin condition
2) i have a hole in my chest
3) my kneecaps point inwards
3b) my eyes are "inside" and make me look as if im wearing mascara all the time
3b) my cheeks are permanetly red
3c) i have no eyebrows

THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU
1) my issues
2)
3)

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1) whatever
2) just
3) fuck

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO
1) mars
2) hawaii
3) chernobyl

THREE NAMES THAT YOU GO BY
1) apostolis
2) akis
3) malaka

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE OR HAD
1) pyro
2) prince_albert
3) arsonist

Ok so I didn't sleep yesterday, now I slept for just 3hours...I can't, my head is killing me, I feel...nothing...its as if someone sliced me open, took everything out and just let me there...and that someone is myself...why do I have to be like this?! Why can't I just be like the normal people, why?! Whatever, it doesn't really matter no more, I just want to see my folks for a last time, them and my mate Mavros.

Oral radiology!

I mean, that weapon is just beautyfull....

-TheVirus- So I had a girlfriend for all of 9 months. She dropped
by one afternoon when I was sick with a pan of brownies and a video
tape with the simpsons on it (my favorite show). so I start eating
the brownies and turn on the tape. midway through it, it cuts to
her sucking off some dude. he nuts in her mouth, she looks at the
camera, and says "you're dumped. enjoy the brownies" - and spits
the mouthful of cum into a bowl of brownie mix.
-alexandr- you didn't keep eating the brownies did you?
-TheVirus- sure did
-TheVirus- i was hungry

Feeling really bad, I want to destroy something beautyful.

Fucking paranoia! I mean why the fuck can't I think only positive, for once! Please! Why do I have to think of the bad things that have happened, or could happen, or will, what the fuck!? I don't know I guess its just that things have never turn out like this, so it's kinda hard foe me to believe that it's for real, then my issues come in as well and yay how nice it is. My sleeping hours are fucked too, I go to bed at 11pm, wake up half 2am, then go back to bed at 10 and sleep untill 3. Anyhoo, Arni told me about the counseling place in uni so I might go, I know that if I go to meds I will become a different person, so, do I want to be myself with all the pain that it brings to me and the ones that care for me, or do I become another happy person that has completely lost his self?

I have just apreciate the usability of cable ties, they can solve many issues.

I really need to get rid of the hook I made, it's been there for like 10days now.

you know when you get to familiarize yourself with yout body? i am just finding more and more reasons to hate it, i mean, god, its so fucking ugly, in and out, its like covered in small zits, i wanna get a razor and slice a couple of layers off, well i guess just slicing my vains would work but yeah, whatever.

fuck this, fuck life, fuck that stupid job, fuck mom, dad, fuck everything up, burn them and set yourself ablaze.

Why the fuck do things have to be like this?! I mean, I don't know, what to say or do.


This is just horrible.

Ahhh, all these dreams, what are they, my thoughs? It's all about sex and murder, I want to kill someone, I want to bite their throat off, rip their heart with my bare hands, snap their neck.

Ah, maybe I should join the army.

I am such a pussy! I can't even cut my wrists! Well I am off to get a pari of cauffs and sleeping pills, what I am goin to do is. I will swallow the sleeping pills, wait till I get fucked, get a bad over my head and secure it with some mascing tape, then cuff my hands so I won't be able to take it off. No I now that it's going to be the worst 5 minutes I have ever experienced in my pittyfull life, but hey, death awaits! Yay!

(gravestone)


Akis RIP
23/10/198 - 23/10/2003

See it looks good! =D

I was dreaming about CS again, I killed some dudes with AWP, everything was real though, anyway. One of these dudes is supposed to be a big-time mobster, he calls me and invites me to go to his place (so he isn't dead?).

I have no car, but I see a Bugati at the road. The driver gets kicked out (by me!), and in the co-driver’s seat appears to be his daughter, who is in school uniform. I tell her not to get out and I get a sneak peak under her skirt (I am such a perv!!!), she then rushes out. Moments of pleasure follow as the car does 300kph in an instant, my driving skills suck, even in my dreams! While on the car, I see a Latin chick and proceed to invite her in my car (I am really not that kind of a person!) she gets topless for no reason and I squeeze more power off "my" car to make it in time to the meeting with the boss.

He lives in a posh place, like a palace, I am all dressed up so they might even think the car is mine. Now, I see some old chick saying to a guy there, to uncover at me, i.e. let me know of what really the family is up to. I then wear a weird suit, and find myself in some catacombs collecting weird weapons. Immediately an attack follows, I think it’s the cops.

A firecracker blows up in the sky and I wake up.

i was with some people in a very cold place, we where standing on ice when someone went in and couldnt find a way out, so i jumped in the sea to see if i can find him, i come out and the rest of them but one go inside. the other guy who has with me above the water saw them, so i trew him an axe, he couldnt brake the ice so i did it, then zafeiro came out of the water.

then, i find myself in a room with a friend of mine and somone talking about me getting a job, many things happen including me srawing a pistol.